A letter from April 15th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Today is April 15, 2020, 2:30 am. It has officially been 9 days since I have been in my room quarantined. Who would've thought that 2020 would start off to a rough year. The amount of death I have seen and heard. The amount of people that have lost their loved ones and the families that have been stuck abroad. My whole life is on hold and for tons of other people. Most of the people I know their wedding has been cancelled. Every bride looks forward to their wedding day and due to this pandemic it may be postpone for a very long time. This makes me think that in the next 6 months I'm supposed to leave to go back home for my wedding, but will that be postpone as well just like many others that have been? I didn't realize this till it was too late, every single one of us took life for granted and doing simple thing like going to meet family. You don't know the true pain till you're home stuck in your room due to being exposed. You can hear your family outside of the four walls having fun and playing games, but you can't do anything. Healthcare workers are one of the other things that people took for granted. While majority of the people are off us front line healthcare workers and many other essential workers are forced to go to work and put ourselves at risk. I have spent one too many nights crying and praying for this all to be over and honestly I am losing hope. We are all being punished in one way or another for something we have done. We are on a lock down mode and people don't realize how extroverted people and people with mental illness are being effected the most. You can't go outside nor can you meet up with people. If you're exposed then into your room for isolation you go. Cut apart from your family. Schools and Universities are closed and everyone has to learn from home. Most workplaces are requiring their staff to work from home as well. It's getting crazier and scarier day by day. As if today, the current confirmed cases in Canada is 27,063. Total death count is 8,235 and the total recovered cases are 903. I don't know if I will make it alive to next year. It is all in gods hand how my life will turn out or if I will make it next year. Who knows if I will get married this December of if the lock down will be lifted. All I can do and everyone else is hope for the best. F.G 2000-01-03 2:35 am