A letter from Jun 16th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear Me, Here I am, sitting in a little room on campus after finishing my thesis defense. I'm officially done with college. This feels so weird. I'm writing you this letter so you remember the euphoria you felt right after you were done. The feeling of accomplishment. You did so well my dude. And you deserve everything good that happened today. An 8 for research and a 9 for the lab work. That's insane. I'm very proud of you right now. I don't know what you're doing right now. Probably finishing up your masters if you actually ended up doing that. You got this man. Or if you're always done. YOU MF DID IT MAN. I'm proud of you. We worked hard for this. We came a long way from the 12 year old Egyptian girl that was slowly navigating her way through her new Dutch society. We survived countless ruthless teachers that tried to convince us that we were no good. Well, look at us now. We're here to help this world just a little bit more. I hope you found something you wanted to do, whether that's continuing your research or becoming a college professor. You got this. You can do anything you set your mind to. I love you. Love always, Your newly college graduated self :)

Epilogue

3 days later

This feels like a lifetime ago, while this wasn't even that long ago. I remember feeling so proud. And I should be. I worked really freaking hard during a hard...

Ietm. Rdeeliaz dt'no yresa satp ni uhcm i i 3 rweg hinkt up iolonkg eht back, woh i ever. I dtlau aws 22 at cuhs laryle i ttuoghh an. 2,5 oknw 'mi yllletiar at tsju igrl a i onw. Leertt fo my erfat iilgvn otok nad ithrg rtats who glir iahtf a eapl hturt hsit a. Hre newt a ot edomhtalnr tedytini ligr bkac ehr woh to eiamcrl. Eno oimncg tfisr rlig nmtho my htta adn a ot boj istrtang dha wtse fo ohw utsj het yeitidtn stetaerhd cbak. Yugl ignth icasmr an is. Afhit aepl fo nhte uperus agrd ooshcl ootk naehrto btu ot i. Ssametr up ned did my tyaacull doing i. Ton tey cuoers, ,usacebe tiuqe im' i of wnat hmuc deon ot. At tgirgungls ym kbca btu if i e,artsm i with otl yfmsel ebgniignn itkhn a the of asw. Fi gdoo admage vene for luytlcaa htna ym roem ojb i ddi rewokd ontmhs isfrt 6 yonl. Arle was ym reyosmnd iotsmorp. Putsdi i elft. Mtosal yroeenve holcso adgr ni utrns lsfee bdmu o,tu. Adlg userp thuhgo i'm i ddi hsit. Cmuh fo i lfee redamtu sbceuea ikel ti os i. Diagen a pnerso cmuh a sa sa oasl ei'v tteniiscs utb os cneeeirpxe. Od ot i ahtw i knwo antw nda do. Sour bhto ouy erdma meka to iazlrnieg mi' anflily rfo yb yb noggi ubt :) a udrpo 'lli od ,ristf fo na iggno nntipehisr doaarb. Oedn rielnnga not ew'er. I to feel tlfe raiehupo ni the isth i nagai atht erltet tcnnoa iwta. Hatn weer lot rasey esbeuac all seary be nda i a ysa 4 atht haev 3 lgloece snthoe rhrdae eth ptsa my to of. Ceavhide pudor i ttha fo raerehcs m'i jcsporte 4 lla eatrl oatmls. Elsf 'mi of atsp rhad for irkogwn drpou btu ym aslo. You egihevyntr ofr hits <3 tkhan we rteetgho idd.
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Ywsa,al vleo.
Lamsto luceolarm dreaguat asstmre tlsiboiog.