A letter from Dec 7th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Currently, it's 1:50 am and it's cold. I wondered what you'd be like, what you'd be doing by this time of year next year. It's been cold lately and my bones started hurting again. I have some unfinished reqs and hopefully, you don't. I just wonder if you have someone you love yet or you still don't have someone to call and like and feel butterflies over. I wonder if you're still friends with your "friends" now. If you picked DevComm or ComArts and if you're happy about your decision. If you're proud of me or if I'd be proud of you. If anyone new has found their way or way back into your life. If things are great. Or if they're bad. If 2022 really turned out to be our year. If you enjoyed your 18th birthday. If you colored your hair. If you bought that luna cup. If you have a film camera. If you graduated and did great. If you have a new favorite movie. If you have a dog. IIf your capstone was published. If you passed UP. If you passed the big 4. If school is normal. If things are normal. If you no longer have to wear a mask. f you like someone. If you're liked by someone. If you have the things you want. If you're reading again. If you're loving again. If you believe again. If you've changed. If you're happy. If you're cold too. A while ago, I heated up some water for my tea. Mom and dad are asleep in the living room. I'm not exactly sure why. Kuya's finishing his thesis and tapping his leg against the floor, but I'm used to it. I looked out the kitchen window into the part of the garden with the white gate and wondered what it would be like to be a ghost in the moors. But now, I'm about to take a warm bath. While waiting for the water to heat, I'm drinking green tea and it's reminding me of the chilly 16th birthday morning I spent in japan when okaasan gave us a bottle of green tea just to keep us from the cold. Speaking of which, have you traveled this year. Are you cold too? I hope you find some warmth. I love you. Always, Me/You

Epilogue

over 1 year later

Hello past self! I'm really glad I read this at this point in time. I know I didn't write a reply when it was due but here I am. It's...

No'td exnt yeras ni nwok hatt look ilek razyc wath em uyro ifel rheet wlil ot the yuo. Mayn tisgnh epepnhda so ahve os. Mots ntd'ulow cxtepe uyo tehm fo. Idd enmeoso esfl i psta have elvo i. Temh hadsn eb sith htwi dhonigl arye nad hemt eotwr dna uyo dyo'u so fmro hte eon ggunigh eetl,tr gefnlei fase yad. No ryuo nolger ni y'treeh feil ubt. Tnpaiexaoln fro atht ylrale veah up lilw erbko na nt'do nda bybolpar you snareos rneev. .
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Piekcd srtomca i. ):) be outcnld' i prepiah.
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Oyu fo esfl droup mi' nktih i stpa. Me du'yo ton hsa inces user 'mi resya eht 3 lifreua orf how astp efle utboa em neathdu. 'ntod tlle uoy a tawh teyh rnuobut seiuors ts'ath igh,nt si. I sigeen rfo hknit e,m vidervus eb uoy vhae who pduro oyu tbu hcum owldu htat npocmsoisa onw i tuinl.
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