A letter from the past

Dear FutureMe, what i really wish i could do is send letters into the past but until time travel is possible sending them to the future will have to do. As i sit here, it's just over a week until my 25th birthday. I'm afraid of getting older. It's not that 25 is old it's just close to 30 and not far behind that is 40 and i'm just afraid that before i know it my whole life would have passed me by. I just can't imagine living another twenty years, especially if they're anything like the last twenty. I started to write that if your life isn't any better now than it was when this was written, you need to go ahead and kill yourself but it's pointless because i doubt i can live much longer with the way things are now. I don't even know why i'm writing to my future self because it won't make any difference. All i want is for life to be better, to be happy. I wish i had someone who loves me, i wish i was married and i wish i wasn't so afraid of everything. And if you're still hung up on that guy (which knowing me you will be) you need to get the fuck over it. Oh and happy birthday :)