A letter from December 21st, 2012

Dear Future TOM, So I guess the world hasn't ended yet... :) I am writing this while on your bed. I am pretty bored right now while Nida is cleaning the dishes and doing your laundry. Swedish house Mafia's Dont you worry child is currently playing. Really love this song right at this moment. So, you are 29 now. I wonder if you still have that baby face. hihi. Have you already started your own business? I'm not quite sure if this is what you want.We never really talk much about our future as of this moment. I guess we both feel awkward to do that just yet. We've only been together for 10 months as of this moment. :) I wonder if we are still together. At this point in time, we're doing pretty well. I hope you going to girly bars didn't ruin us cause I still get pretty upset whenever you go to one. grr! In fact, you went to one last night. You told me about it and I appreciate that.. but still. Sigh. If we are still together I hope you have stopped by now. Whenever I say it's ok. Most of the time I don't mean that. You still haven't told me you love me yet. :( I do feel that you care for me though. Whenever I get hormonal it's one thing that really makes me sad. Andy told me that you the longer you wait till you say 'it' the special it gets which actually made sense. Do you still remember the first time I said I love you? that was during our 5th monthsary. And right now, I do think Ive said it way too early. I was not sure. I think I was influenced by how I thought things should be. Like love should be said when you're a couple. But it's not something you force or do just because. Here I thought I was mature already. You made me understand that 'love' means so much more than just a word. I realized I got used to an environment where 'love' is being overly used without it's true essence. I hope you are in good health. Have you finally succeeded in quitting smoking? I hope you have by now. It is for your own good. If we are still together... I'd want to grow old with you, you know. :) Always take care of yourself. I wonder where you'll be living around this time? Would you still be in Eastwood? I wonder if I'd still be working for IBM after 5 years. hehe I hope you haven't got me pregnant yet. haha But seriously speaking though... I'd only be 27 by this time. I hope we've been travelling and planning for more to come. ^^ I hope you speak and understand more Tagalog by now. hihi I hope you have grown into the man you wanted to be. Most importantly, I hope you are happy and full of life upon receiving this email. with love, 23-year-old Lianne P.S If we are still together by now... I sure hope you're already my fiance. haha If not yet, you better propose na! or... If we are not together anymore I hope we stayed as good friends.