A letter from December 21st, 2016

Dear Future Me, Waiting eagerly for Yuri on Ice!!! to break or mend my heart in the final episode. Is there a second season yet? Right now... everything is fine. I'm not fighting with Mary. I don't think we've ever had a fight. Let's keep it that way. I'm doing well in school. I hope that doesn't change. Mentally.... I feel unsatisfied with everything. Like I constantly need something distracting me. You know? Maybe I'm just a thrill junkie. Am I still wasting hours reading fanfiction? I wont be mad. It's amazing. South park fanfiction of all things... no words :) I guess that's strange. Do I get better at art? Sign language? Did I finally make color guard? Or is that just going to be a bad reminder. whatever, I know I tried my best. Maybe I'm too hard on myself. It makes me depress every time Mary talks about it, but I would never tell her that. I've never been one for confrontation. What would talking about it do? My goal should be to stay alive and be happy. Easier said than done. Will I still want to be in the medical field ? Are Corinne and I still talking? It feels like ages. I miss her. I hope you're happy. I wonder if I will forget I wrote this and just be completely freaked out when this shows up. Would you mind listening to church bells again? I know every word. Maybe I still will. Is Eric from the bus still annoying? Will you ever actually talk to Hannah after she graduates? Will you actually see Cooper ? He'll be two before you know it, yet, you've only seen him once. How does the Shelly thing turn out? I haven't met her yet, but I'm still worried. Did Mary Poppins go well? Do I end up having time to do plays next year? Did you overwork yourself? Did I really think it was a good idea to sign up for 5 AP classes? Just because You're doing great grades wise doesn't mean you can't get stuck in the muck. I believe in you though. Don't be too stubborn. You're smarter than you think you are. Quit comparing yourself to others. You're not them. You're not a sociopath. Don't listen to him. He's probably half kidding. Did Steven disappear? I don't think I'll mind too much. Still into Hamilton? Is mom okay? She seems like she's at her breaking point sometimes. I wish you the best. Be smart. sincerely, Past self p.s. Of course you're right. You're Norwegian