A letter from December 19th, 2015

Dear FutureMe, This is past you, me. I don't really know what to say to you just that I hope you're alive and well. I've got a about million question going through my head right now about who you've become or stayed the same as but I'll just remind you about 21 year old me first ( you) This year I (old you) gave us away to way too many boys who did't care. Cam, delby, charles (who you should've called back), Aric (again *rolls eyes), and Logan. Does it still hurt when you think about logan? even two years later? because right now I miss him everyday and it's kinda funny really... I was always too barred out to even remember anything about him, but I do remember waking up to him everyday and thinking "goddamn he's beautiful" and I really thought he liked me too but then he just left... You didn't ever let anything like that happen again did you? I hope not because it was your birthday week and he left you, and your friends left you, and you went to a bar alone, and I thought i was gonna kill yourself that night. Are you glad you didn't? Right now I have friends that aren't really my friends. Did you ever get rid of them? tell them off? By the time you get this letter you be will 23 I hope you've got some money saved, and maybe a boyfriend you can introduce to your family and not someone who breaks your heart every weekend. I know you wanted to find people who understood you, and kept getting let down... Did they ever stop letting you down, did anyone ever love you back? Did we get that puppy I always wanted. Remember cooper? the dog you found forever ago, the lab mix? do you think about him still like you think about puppy? Did Donald Trump win the election, forcing you to move to Canada? He's such an idiot I can't even. I hope you're keeping your vision straight and your head clear, I hope you stopped letting strangers drive you home when youre in high heels. I hope you look both ways when you cross the street now and stop taking $500 as a reward. I love you so much and I put so much faith in you. I dont like where I am right now in 2015 but hopefully you did something about that. Did you? or are we still stuck? By the time you read this something about you will have died or ignited, or both. what parts of me did I lose this year? You, me