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Dear FutureMe, There have been two occasions in my life in which I met a person who I have instantly clicked with and knew that the person was as interested in me as I was with them. I have recently met a third person to join the first two in the ultra intrusive and mega exclusive aspect of my life that is the tumultuous anomaly of bad timing. I love my wife, I always have. But our marriage is in dire need of passion, the proverbial spark, the enigmatic fire that keeps love alive. Now I know for a fact on my part that I have done everything and anything to keep the passion alive but I honestly can say without a doubt that it isnt me. I love being in love and I love to passionate but it breaks my heart when my efforts are in vain and not reciprocal. But I knew it from the beginning going into this marriage, it was more sexual attraction than kindred. I never felt the type of attraction to my wife that I feel towards the girl(s) that unexpectedly walked in my life and inadvertently captured my attention. But I have devoted myself to my wife nonetheless and have made a vow I intend to keep regardless of my desires. I am going to keep going with this marriage until Michelle finally decides that she has had enough with me, though I do not doubt that she is not that far from recognizing her unrealized culmination. Its ok, I am patient whether I like to be or not. I do love her, I just wish she would realize it and stop taking me for granted. I have NEVER been good at talking to or meeting women and it pains me that the three women that I could have been potentially and exceptionally happy with were not only extremely beautiful but exhibit all the qualities that I look for a women, all traits that my wife does not and may not ever possess. Granted, I have never had the opportunity to get to know them further but from our brief encounters, I could tell that something special could have been built from the ground up. I have never felt that way about my wife and our 6 years of marriage have only proven me right despite my valiant effort to keep searching for something in my wife to keep me going aside from her physical beauty. I know its a bad idea to keep a marriage going for the sake of the children but I do it relentlessly for my kids, because I want them to have the family experience that I never had and have always desired; which I especially owe to my son. With this letter to myself, I will let this 3rd one go, against all my wishes to get to know her better and in honor of the promise I made and the vow I swore to raise a family together with my wife. I just hope my wife recognizes it all before my patience or hers really runs out...