A letter from April 11th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Yesterday I bawled my eyes out. Knowing that the love of my life is heading back to his hometown and possibly serving the military as well is heartbreaking. A whole ass country away and 12hr difference. How am I able to handle that? I’m not emotionally stable, I think too much, negatively, I start to dig in more to connect some dots. I don’t want to do that anymore. “When I say I love you, I mean it” I’ll take those words to heart to remind myself I don’t have to feel a certain way, Jay loves me in every day, that’s all that matters.