A letter from Dec 29, 2023

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Self, Are you still alive? On this very day, you promise you'd end it all. And here I am wondering right now if you're still able to see this letter. If not, then I hope you're somewhere you'll truly be happy now. If yes, then I have some things to tell you. I'm proud. Thankful even. It just means you really still have the strength and willpower to push through despite everything going against your way. Despite thinking that you don't deserve anything that gives you happiness. I hope you'll still keep this up. And probably this time, won't plan out your passing. I hope you make friends, work out on yourself this time, and promise you'll be even better to yourself than you were for these past years. That is all, take care as always. Love, Your Past Self.

Epilogue

about 19 hours later

Dear Past Self,

Yes, I'm still alive. Despite...

Of adn mtie a wfe dntou'lc a motnhs oeripmnmvet ruoy i borutsel ta rjoma ot dha eherw i hinamcstmpelosc, was asy i. I ees lylnafi voem fseyml rltete, ut,b htat vhea isht nda 'im fuhnlakt teg ot. Tlcuaa nca ramttse hawt amybe nahecg nelar amke ldorw, urlyt na erehw keam my ot sjut i ynflali tmos nad eht efil brtte,e oemv ot ot.
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Rertunc uoyr le,vo efls.